The Passage of Time

You sit in the corner of a black room watching your stomach eat itself and receding into the distance further every minute in the corner of a black room watching your stomach eat itself and receding into the distance further every minute in the corner of a black room watching your stomach eat itself and receding into the distance further every minute in the corner of a black room watching your stomach eat itself and receding into the distance further every minute in the corner of a black room watching your stomach eat itself and receding into the distance further every minute in the corner of a black room watching your stomach eat itself and receding into the distance further every minute in the corner of a black room watching your stomach eat itself and receding into the distance further every minute in the corner of a black room watching your stomach eat itself and receding into the distance further every minute in the corner of a black room watching your stomach eat itself and receding into the distance further every minute in the corner of a black room watching your stomach eat itself and receding into the distance further every minute in the corner of a black room watching your stomach eat itself and receding into the distance further every minute in the corner of a black room watching your stomach eat itself and receding into the distance further every minute in the corner of a black room watching your stomach eat itself and receding into the distance further every minute in the corner of a black room watching your stomach eat itself and receding into the distance further every minute in the corner of a black room watching your stomach eat itself and receding into the distance further every minute in the corner of a black room watching your stomach eat itself and receding into the distance further every minute in the corner of a black room watching your stomach eat itself and receding into the distance further every minute in the corner of a black room watching your stomach eat itself and receding into the distance further every minute in the corner of a black room watching your stomach eat itself and receding into the distance further every minute in the corner of a black room watching your stomach eat itself and receding into the distance further every minute in the corner of a black room watching your stomach eat itself and receding into the distance further every minute in the corner of a black room watching your stomach eat itself and receding into the distance further every minute in the corner of a black room watching your stomach eat itself and receding into the distance further every minute in the corner of a black room watching your stomach eat itself and receding into the distance further every minute .

Teenage Mother

Cripple wind finger bone

break nail cut deep rift

cavern upswell seabed

ocean cloud bubbling

vents feed anaerobic eyes

drink heat down swell

thick healthy hell of

comfort blanketed

mummy tight ava

-lanche burning

brightly from

within to suffocate

his gasping skin

shrieking prayers like

birds diving suicide brave

into depths to catch fish

who never look up who

look only forward and

forward until they're

dragged up into a

breathless void to a

disemboweled afternoon

with scales upsetting teeth and

tiny bones choking babies

who are then shook upside down

and upside down and

upside down shaken

babies shaking babies

who shook her baby to death

she did

tell a story

I met a boy with cracked hands today,

he told me he didn't love himself

i told him he should sleep

he started to cry and i held his

cracked hand so carefully and

told him he should sleep

and then i drank a glass of water and

we walked for some time down

so many streets i lost count

and all my words and all my

steps and every breath became

one blur and one breath and

i remember it happening like

so many photographs taken,

these beautiful streaming

thirtieths of a second that

wash like headrush

and the silence between the

camera opening it's mouth

and closing it is gaping

infinity and prayer orgasm to

the vastness of

forever and echoing and

echoing and echoing and

echoing and

suddenly

before i can tell him i love him he

becomes dust and then

no dust and I'm left standing with

my shadow

oblivions

Plug your hair baby

into

that light socket and

light up like a

Christmas tree for

me baby on fire baby

bright light burning for

ten days of night un

-til i breathe a mist of

tears that announces a

readiness for a certain kind of

death

one

that says i

loved

and i

lived fullness and i

tried

and

tried

until my

palms bled from

fingernail kisses that

hated every

thing and

time and

every

sick

fucking

face that

just wasn't

a cure to

this

infinite grey black searching

whose heart is a stomach whose

stomach is a mouth

whose mouth is teeth

whose mouth is snapping

snapping

snapping

snapping

snapping

snapping

need

my strangling hands

are

crushing infinity a

-round your

throat

this universe then

shouldn't be

Computers

Listless Christ creator I

cried as my

crater heart withstood yet

more and more

impact from the function of

time and naked happenings which are

happening all the time literally

every

time

Crossed legged retreat you

try to breathe but swallow

only water

That's wrong

A Price

Apostate sincerity burns,

you know this because

we all do first hand,

the betrayal of love in

-citing the worst hate

My father's prostate black

-ened in fast forward and I

stood for months in my

body quaking and quaking doing

nothing but living tremors for

Him

Say this labyrinth is a

trope for his

gift?

Then I will

burn it

all

down

laughing

madly

bawling

Rubbing Your Face

In hazy disquiet confesses that

his unyielding sex is regret em

-bodiment, fettered restraint which is

poetry itself yet nonetheless the

truest sad

Tits groping hand leg up biting

lip rake skin corrode a tender

calm

frantic

frantic shivering blurred scope e

-jaculating breath evicting oxy

-gen from lung cavern home out

-ward to inhabit a lone loneness called

without

shiver

hold out your hand for hand

outs of

love or

charity or

com

passion or

kindness or a

kind of a

look from his eyes to

your eyes that indicates

something similar to

knowing but a hands tied

sort of

nothing

I'm sorry

you will just have to endure your

heavy as hell endure your

solid gold cock endure

that

bleeding gallons of life a minute en

-gine that pumps and

pumps and

pumps

god

literally

everwhere without with

out with

out

with out with

out

with

out

with

out

Resting

In these blankets

I have

too many feet

in these blankets I

have too much

tenure in

these blankets

I

have ten sickle shaped

fingers clutching

one

hammer shape

penis in

these blankets I

have no one

in

these sheets I have

a heat in

in these blankets I

sleep and then

don't sleep

in these

blankets I have

sweats for some

teenage virgin in

these blankets I

lied to Universe

herself in

these sheets I stir

in

these blankets a

cloud came

in these

blankets I

monologued a

new testament in

these blankets I sobbed

the old one in

these sheets beneath

pleated skirt safety my

mother died in

these blankets I

discarded virginity in

these

blankets wars were

fought in

these blankets I

never return

Growing Season

Hold your heart up and out

of your chest in your

palm for loving

Christ and living

God hand God

hand kiss breath

whisper baby

time and time and

time

and

so much time and

some amount of

space more space and

more a love than

caving infinity can

suggest

infinity stomach infinity

eyes infinity saliva in

-finity chewing your

leg to leather chew

-ing your lips to

dust chew

-ing your fingers

like therapy chew

-ing your fucking

ovary devour your

garder devour your

garden devour your

garden de

-vour your

garden devour

your garden devour your

garden

then

Tired, Muttering

Numb mouth clenched fist stomach

love

Hate an angel of winged brilliance and winged

everything every

thing more than you can

be or have

so

salvation sleep temporary or

permanent until it's not yes

tricky trickster sleep, fooling

finally some sense of arriving in

a comfortable skin

and then toosoonmorning brings

fresh hard-on and

pyroclastic orgasm comes like a mouth screaming at

thousands of feet per second to

eat every piece of your

brand new calm

Glut

Confiscate sadistic america wisdom,

commandeer eastern womb to bear

fragile ceramic born orphans whose

gut flora jump ship on dream row

boats and winged shits

ape economy couraged by

Promethean ambition whose

liver now is the people

eat everything on your plate

eat everything on your plate

eat everything on your plate

eat everything on your plate

eat everything on your plate

eat everything on your plate

eat everything on your plate

eat everything on your plate

eat everything on your plate

eat everything on your plate

eat everything on your plate

eat everything on your plate

eat everything on your plate

eat everything on your plate

eat everything on your plate

eat everything on your plate

eat everything on your plate

eat everything on your plate

eat everything on your plate

eat everything on your plate

eat everything on your plate

eat everything on your plate

eat everything on your plate

eat everything on your plate

eat everything on your plate

eat everything on your plate

eat everything on your plate

eat everything on your plate

when we forgot that we don't need

everything we can take

eat everything on your plate

Last Breathing Moment

Tide flee seabird sea tread water salt

ash engine forward fastly fasting heavenward

try muddy water wilting wander hips sore

from winter store to store to summer

lore of tree spirit book djin who let

the armies of Isreal in even though

they were nothing but dried bones

who saddened over burnt bread

took shelter from His wrath yet

drank His milk sweet bathing

silkworm working title term

fuck flirt with firefly notions of

foxes loping through the

dirt gallery to halls bursting from

the echoes of heartbeats that

are the manifest destiny of

Christ's throbbing human

erection in indifference to

taste and questioning skin

I'd rather taste the flesh of

foreign fruit than drown in

the queer parading chasm of

stupid certainty which is

the universal dumb

I'd like to die in

a glass tunnel over water

Crying

Television temptress ten cessations of

tenure quarrel fuck quarrel fuck this

cyclical love moon cycle hate

Qualities of skin, rise and fall of

breath and breast who drowns in

time and space

breathe stories

because they're everywhere and

every material thing

Oblivion

Finger tips lyrical lips and stick figure

rib illustration of a woman who

doesn't eat and

doesn't care for herself who

smokes heavily

drinks often who

poisons time with doubt and

sabotages time with doubt I

tried to shake her

tried tried struggled to

open her with

fists repeatedly to her

eyes

eyes

I liquor up because

there's nothing left to

do

Skin Spots

I've got fistfulls of

sand and

hair and

ash and

stars and

you and

stones and

cut glass and

fitfully sleeping

nights wake

exhausted days

Inventory

I have too many feet

my hands hung up

perforated lips hold

no water

my tongue flows away

shut eyes open blinded bright

breast filled with fright and fright and

hair smouldering it's burned for ten

generations but only at night

birds stopped gathering on

laugh lines ash

skin cash money paid in debt

no more my skin

teeth hollow eggshell brittle white

gums bleed gums will go to seed in

belly which is just a hungry thing

feed to it virgins and throwaway afterthoughts

centrepiece cancer cornucopia basket bread

board with this my threadbare body

cup of christ habits for no one

board with my loving bag of bones

or just sip your wine

in silence

Health Problems

Dawn down, missile motion towards the

ocean thump, glass tattoo wilting petal fade

teardrop orgasm guilting thrust

distrusted guts hold baby rust ovary

insist in cystic shakedown

her vagina bleeds constantly

art which is love de

feated by life but

breathing obligation purchases

a day and

another day

slight hand deftly conducting

cacophonous romance

attempting fuck

accomplishing seed

shakedown

sleep

I have too many feet

Cancer Everywhere

Are these the ending days, when

the pines lay down and the moss kisses,

skeletons of leaves crackle like

twisted fingers and the dog is

too old, when the bible flesh

loses material presence and

there is nothing left but

shadows of questions

Pages of dust, I breathed away the book,

I emptied this vault heart and scuttled my

stomach and I hung my legs up and I

lay down my arms beside my hands and I

was just a head and a hole with

searching eyes left

nothing to search

I have cancer

everywhere

Want

When all need can be refuted, which it can,
then want becomes the only true need.

I Think

It's good to have enemies,
so far as I can tell, pull, some force
some something feeling somewhat like
a hell of heartache and unknown
future
the one you love is
the one you fear the most

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Leaf

Cosmic blaspheme
tarantula gargantuan
harangue lips and
scold busy finger tips
corrupt art
vilify the virgin
dance religion
hang the pope
riches bowel
poor radiant teeth
honestly clean
honestly virtuous
tenth
thirteenth
pegasus whisper
tender pre-teen fondle
exploration slut who
doesn't know better
bathe in tongue
embrace confusion
abstract the abstraction
dialogue with mutterers
council with canines man's
best friend
taking advice from a hungry
mouth a wagging tale and
restless legs a 15,000 year
old wolf who is an avatar
for instinct
a memory capsule
moon's distance lover
who mothered the
world before birthing
a thirsty litter
milk
honey
bread
fire and fashion and
steadfast love and
origami truth whose
folds are lost the
yellow paper catches in
oiled baseball glove
embrace like
mom and
mother or
mommy who
spit me from the mouth bellow
who knows the nest is nothing
but a test for life and gravity and
the lemming gene the will to live the
migraine of being the
concreteness of the reality of
the undeniability of
living and
dying of the
irrefutability of
suffering at the
strange hand of
being the arbitrary hand of
THIS is me and not this or
that

So who accepts blowing around in the wind who
surrenders to being a pawn

Finally

London fog or fig leaf shroud Adam
Eve even
naked ape sensitive "human" who
grew smart weak willing willful
weary of the arbitrary or perhaps
just stumbled on snake
Is that why I am pathetic today?
Predestiny?
I long again for West 71st street
and New Amsterdam
A cold room and a radiator hissing
like you choking it
woke me I
panicked

I loved you then,
it became
sealed

Love To Hate Me

Dim the lights,
set your lips on fire

Sex Addiction

It was callous it was
careless it was
carving caricatures of
Christ into cave walls and
crystal balls it was
canine cravings for
killfuck killing it
was quantified love un
willing it
came it comes in spurts it
was quarried heart or
excavated soul it came it
quivered and so it comes
in shudders that deliver
nothing but
empty stomach
empty empty
stomach be
cause I
didn't
love her.

After So Many Things

Finished breakfasts and
used condoms and
read books and
chewed bones and
worn shoes and
weathered hands and
so many lies and
lived-in homes and
old Texas and
tired horses and
parched throats and
rusty hinges
lies lies lies and
arthritic dog and
dusty bible and
cold soup and
dried up creek

What am I
to seek?

Her

Harlequin hungover hard-on heavenly
high harassing Harriet's hymen heat
heat heat horrifically her heart heaved
having had him howling hell haunting hurting
henceforth hating hard hard hard-on and
forever [t]hereafter.

Things

A man with a beautiful face a woman with a beautiful lung a boy with a beautiful blue toy a girl with a beautiful baby a day with laughter a sky with wishes a stone with secrets a key with cupid a dancer with wings a horse with milk eyes a snake with a promise an ocean with a song a night with a murder a dead man dreaming with a grin a bottle full of space a tooth with eyes a mouth with anger a tongue with justice a home without a map a needle a tree a gift an angel a silver hair a stool or a prism with living emanations or the dead constellations of synapse sex that fled hurtling outward at the speed of living or a book or a bean or a beetle green or a bitch with a litter wanting milk so a saucer does because the tits didn't exist a shelf and dust a ball of cotton soaked in us a candied flower to a lover and a letter to a mother a kiss a dying breath a fuck another kiss a breathing death an unbreathing life after a stomach a hole a cancer a bowl a butter knife and a scalpel buttered bread and a chapel and a priest who prays for endless nights and ending days a cog a second hand a little dust mote and a sand coloured stain on darker skin that promises that once I was lighter but truth happened who calls it Sun a burn a hovering bruise and smothering for days who choose
a stick a knight a cup a holy ghost a sight a sore these eyes a bone who lies an inkwell sly and televised a carpenter ant a glass tattoo a virus an apple a tantalizing breast a seductive arching back a pound of flesh a price a pension earning as an old man aged before us who loved nothing but a quick dog a lazy finger a queen a crow a shred of proof

All Day In Bed

If me loving you doesn't make you
love me back, seeing how much I
love you will only make me
repulsive to you.

September 3rd, 2011, 6:13 am

I think,
there's something undeniably honest
about someone going insane.
As if there is nothing else as honest.
No one else as honest.

If this were truly the last thing I
ever wrote,

It would be my
most satisfying

We Killed

Whose prophet told him to bet on
chance not odds because
she's a better lover she tells more
truths whose mother always kept
milk on the table kept bread in the
oven kept a full cup for Christ who
never came without gifts who kept the
door unlocked for any ghost who
came who
loved a prayer and a song who
loved verses from the book of
Anger or Hate who
lip read the rapture and day dreamed the
meat whose

Slaughter was in reverence to
excellence and baptism and
honesty and virginity and truth
or half truth or shades of fractions of
truth or maybe opinions even but certainly
not lies whose slaughter was in honor of
Bill and Joan and Patrick or
Anthony whose whale never swallowed
Jonah whose bush never burned whose
lips never peeled from sunburn cruelty whose
tied shoelaces never tripped him whose
skinned knees were then a lie whose
guilt trip was false whose
sex addiction was his own weakness whose
liquor flowed by his own hand whose
tears were only sweat whose
volume upon volume of Conan Doyle were
only testaments to his boyhood innocence and
I wish truly I do that
we could I could rescue him from the
inkwell of his own insane downspiral but
the internet and the Heidelberg press
cahooted to kill something beautiful and
since then there's been nothing trustworthy
about us.

Because we killed the last beautiful person.

Making Good On A Promise

Something beautiful.

What We Become

Who killed jesus when they voted for a
baby who looked like a promise but was
just a black fuck, a vague hole or a
gravity well that pulled like a hooker, who

Hasn't eaten since the internet who
loves only orgasm who
tastes the most electronic blood who
laughs one zero one who
would frag you lol who
would spit in your yearbook unsigned and
photograph the place where your locker was who
will never remember forgetting who
is plugged in who
is out there in the
cosmos of pornography and attention deficit who
is scared as hell when the power's out whose
skin is a pale blue who
sits in wife beater and
white underwear because he is a
god who
chats angels and
searches the answers

Kill me
any
time
now

Wonder What The Fuck

Pulse dialtone love means
never being alone and
carry guns or carry sticks
or carry condoms for
weeping dicks or carry ash
for cloudy sky or carry heavy
burdens I will carry on and
carry forth I'll carry fourth
the major fifth I'll
carry fists I'll carry eyes I'll
carry water in my lies I'll

Fuck the dog metaphorically I
burned the house down in
my sleep
I

I'm jagging with existence and
pranking truth I'm playing games
with you and you and
two versions of my
self there's
the I I see as I and the
me I wish to be or be or
be better than so

Barf the universe barf the key
eject simple fucking honesty a
clear picture or a proof of
something
meaning
anything
so that I don't have to feel that
I'm wasting the preciousness of
moments I could have been sleeping
eternally

please
God don't let me fool myself
[again]

I just ask for constance in my heart or
fingers, certainty
that what is beautiful today will be
beautiful tomorrow and
in two years and
in two generations when
my children's children set eyes upon
my barfing work and wonder what
the fuck

Time Passes

And so we eulogize his soul, because
he was too angry to live, but he wasn't
brave enough to take his life.

Some day he'll learn that it's
smarter to die willfully than
stagnate confused and helpless.

I, How To Live

Who would lock art snobs and philistines
in the same gas chamber and let
the overwhelmed sane get on
with their lives.

End

Life is art so art is just trying to be life and trying is stupid.

Be, be, be

Love lies on a chair, unused or unopened like a letter written but
never sent or,
Love in blanket tatter rum stain kiss, pause, deep breathing moment -
hold it
Love sister, hold on
to your moment of comfort as she snoozes, exhalations that are your name
but fade to anything not your name,
blackwhite sigh, black then
white smiling eye downturn to
feet, feet, feet

Love me you don't love me you
won't love me you
can't
or
won't it
doesn't matter
what you say any
more

Effect removed from
cause is
what it is so

Just be and
be
and
be mine baby
be

Genius fuck
love baby
be

Suicide Note

I'm losing my language
every day
It's getting worse and
before long I will be mute,
still

The more I know, the less
I'm able to speak

Paralysis

Lyrical overwhelm like the constance of a humming sound,
that is my every day or night, so the metabolism of
consciousness is a beast in and of itself it's
everything to me now
Awareness I mean, selfness, the who am I or
what am I or why am I become the blood in
me

Inner world become only world and I've had
to learn to remind myself that out there is

More

Amelia Earhart

Amelia Earhart, children don't even
know your name anymore,
sad tragedy sad
Amelia I'll never love another woman I
promise as
long as I live I'll
never love again

****************

When you went down went
down with a smile into water so
deep so loving so everything

For the water truly is everything

Tao of Mouth

Collapsing mouth, rubble teeth
suffocating tongue who begs relief
holy tonsil broken jaw
whose mouth is closed for this is law

Prayer

Tangled in this hammock with a hand gun and a hard on and I'm
counting silver dollars in my daydreams in the sun and when I
take a little breath and when I breathe a little deeper I'll be
ready for my death yeah I'll be ready for the reaper but I
do not know my father and I can't remember mother I was
raised on television and I never took a lover who could
sell my heart for fashion who could stab me in the back and
who could tell me I was Jesus and then hang me from the rack

and then

oh

and then

oh

smile so politely girl and kiss me on the lips and
let me chew to bone your pretty little liar finger tips who
told me love is this and love is that I'll never let you go who
told me lie lie lie above all else truth isn't yours to know and when
I close my eyes and kiss the gun and say my last goodbye it's your
disgusting name your filthy prayer that I will surely cry

Papillon

None of you
deserve this none
of you
deserve
me.

A Prayer Before Bed Time

"I find it incredibly cathartic to finish off the night
with a passionate 'fuck you' to no one in particular
but everything equally. I actually stopped
masturbating."

- Him Dreamer Daywalking Manboy Animal

Found Scribbled On His Walls Posthumously

"Useless art for useless art for
useless eyes for
sedative purposes for
useless heart for
useless Universe or useless
experiment so our
useless art will be
useless apart from our
< ... >less heart will be
less a part of our
useless stops and
starts which are Uni
versally useless except as a
punchline regarding art"


We're still trying to figure out if it means
anything.

Remembering

Your saying silence like a mute bird
flapping it's wings, and you on your
triumph red victory horse that is a bed whose
teeth are the broken bayonets dropped by
patriots of love and virtue, who
kissed long and long and deep before the war,
who held hands for no longer than it took to
let go for accepting the fate of boys who
go to their fathers' battles to make
graves of beautiful babies
Whose blood should just as well be oil,
and we with laughtercry hysterical,
wash our hands,
eat our supper,
lay down by our children,
pray god, pray him hard like
throwing letters at wind wishing
for a

boy to win

wishing for a what?
a dreamless sleep or more the truth a
guiltless peace for once for once there
was a time when black became white with
no greys between

fight or flee or three eyes remembering a
dharma of sleep

All In One Breath

Crystal carnage new wave panacea for a headache that keeps throbbing through
decades and angel eyelash corduroy confetti in my aids aids aids infected father who
took me for granted and took this whole world for granted as a glass jaw harlequin or
a filthy mouth song bird who spits tobacco and tar on a hot day but never apologizes who
runs their filthy mouth who
carves curse words in soapstone and dialogues the night who
monologues the day with pepper in their eyes whose fireflies outshine the
beating heart of liberty of majesty of honesty of dynasty of
history
or
every little lie I ever cried until the ocean fed the sky to the tune of
fuck fuck goose I
didn't feel a loose tooth until the day my
father died who's
taking taking taking turns raping the moments of their will to live that's right this
suicidal universe is against you and it's begging for implosion it's resorting to
slow entropy it's torturous like sexual teasing on the hottest day
imaginable it's finger tips tracing your spine it's
a betraying tongue flicking your ear it's
a moist breath condensing on your icy belly and falling
falling down down down to
the place you fear to be alone with
your throbbing Judas
betraying your animal betraying
every part of you that wishes it could be a good man or a
virtuous man but you're
really a
vulture aren't you?

Accomplishment

I finally realized my truth,
that the greatest thing I will
accomplish in this
life is having an
orgasm.

I think I'm
ready to die
now. I think
I'd like to
die now.

Girls

You know, some of the
prettiest girls become some
of the ugliest
women.